It's time for one of my Pastoral talks:
I heard you were not well, so I felt compelled to visit so I could talk with you. I'm very sorry to learn of what you are going through. We are thankful for the care you are receiving, and we can pray for an accurate diagnosis as well as the right treatment. The hardest thing about illness is the uncertainty. It can be worse than the pain, or the interruption that sickness brings into our daily lives. It puts so many things on hold.
As you wonder what is going on, and if you are a Christian, you will be asking, Why me, and why now?, remember that we are living in a fallen, broken world, and every son and daughter of Adam is subject to the curse of sin from Adam's fall due to his disobedience to God. It is called "the fall" for, through his disobedience to God, Adam fell into sin and brought the curse of sin upon the world.
These questions are good and the Lord wants us to ask them so that our hearts are turned away from our own self-confidence. He wants us to trust in Him for the strength we need. The very fact that we ask, What is going on?, we are realizing that we are not in control. We are learning that God gives us our health and God determines the measure of strength we enjoy.
As you face medical tests and procedures then endure the waiting for results and the next step in your treatment you may be asking, Is God still with me? Let me read a few verses with you from Psalm 40 to answer your fears.
Psa 40:1 To the chief Musician, A Psalm of David. I waited patiently for the LORD; and he inclined unto me, and heard my cry.
Psa 40:2 He brought me up also out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings.
Psa 40:3 And he hath put a new song in my mouth, even praise unto our God: many shall see it, and fear, and shall trust in the LORD.
Psa 40:4 Blessed is that man that maketh the LORD his trust, and respecteth not the proud, nor such as turn aside to lies.
Psa 40:5 Many, O LORD my God, are thy wonderful works which thou hast done, and thy thoughts which are to us-ward: they cannot be reckoned up in order unto thee: if I would declare and speak of them, they are more than can be numbered.
I underlined the words, "Thy thoughts which are to usward: they cannot be reckoned," as they answer our fears. They teach us that God's thoughts toward His children are beyond counting. Because God is omniscient -- all seeing and all-knowing --, He will not forget you. Even when you are distracted, so that you lose sight of the Lord, He cannot forget you. God is constantly thinking of you and working for your good. Read, also, verse 17 to discover that God's thoughts are not empty. He thinks on us to help, "But I am poor and needy: yet the Lord thinketh upon me: thou art my help and deliverer, make no tarrying, O my God."
It is right, therefore, to call on the Lord in prayer for His help. The Lord is the "great physician" and He shows that He cares and will come to your side to minister to your heart, even in your weakest moment. Pray then believing what you have just learned from the Bible in Psalm 40.
Father in heaven, you know what I'm facing at this time of illness. You know every thought and every fear that fills my heart while I go through things that I do not understand. Father, draw near to me to strengthen my faith at this time. While my body is weak, reassure me of your love for my soul. Pour your grace into my life right now to help me. Do not leave me alone. I know that you sent your Son, the Lord Jesus, into the world to save your people from their sins. I know that for the Lord to purchase my salvation it meant suffering unto death on the cross. Lord, since you have done that, I know you are willing and able help me. So, in this time of my need, come Lord Jesus into my life to give me peace with God through the gospel, and deliver me from all my fears. Father, thank you for your word to comfort me. Use it in my heart today. I pray this in the name of the Lord, Jesus Christ. Amen!